Just thought I'd update my blog since it's been a while. Not sure really what to say so I'll just ramble on about whatever comes to mind....
Artwork, readings and healing has been slow lately since I've been totally distracted by martial arts... Me and my oldest 2 boys started Karate about 2 months ago. They got their yellow tips a couple of weeks ago and I'm ready for my yellow belt. Loving it for sure!! I'm also hoping to start BJJ (Brazilian Jiu Jitsu) on the coming Friday providing I have a babysitter! Really excited and nervous about starting that, it's gonna be hard out lol, but I will enjoy being able to take people down. I swear, no guy will wanna fuck with me again lol, I'll knock him the fuck out ;)
Too many years of abusive guys.... thank the heavens I have a decent one now who actually deserves me ;) Probably the 2nd or 3rd bf I've ever had that hasn't abused me.... finally! I deserve a good guy! And he's so cute... well he doesn't like me calling him cute, so I'll just say he's hot lol =P Yep, I nabbed the hot pizza delivery guy...classic... that's never happened before, but hey, there are always new things and opportunities around the corner presenting themselves throughout life, so I'm open to having as much fun and success in this life as possible =D
Soo, my artwork... I had been totally obsessed with Photoshop CS5 for months and months, having not used a real pencil and paper for at least a good 6 months. I'm currently right in the middle of a portrait of a FB friend, got so far and haven't touched it since... not sure why? I'm thinking I need to experiment more with it, give it some harsher shading and textures, just go for it.... as I noticed my style is quite soft and subtle with painting in Photoshop.... I have been told it's Crisp as well lol....
So, just to get things rolling again with the art, I picked up the pencil and A3 sketch pad and whipped out a few drawings... a few were based on construction that I'd learned many years ago in Freelance Animators, which was annoying me cause I wasn't getting the flow I wanted, my drawings weren't loose enough... and wasn't getting the shape I was after, so I instead decided to grab a few comics like Lady Death and The Witchblade comics for some inspiration and knocked out a quick as sketch that looks pretty good I reckon, but needs more happening in it... though I'm not beating myself up over any of it, just going with the flow.
Except I seem to be finding it difficult to balance artwork, readings and healing with Martial Arts..... not sure why??
I've also been wanting to start photo manipulation again since I used to be quite good at it during my study at a 3D Animation Diploma.... it's so difficult to choose which kind of art style to keep up with as I like many different areas of it...! I'm also keen to start 3D modeling again as I was quite good at that also, though I need the software for a mac, having no longer been using a pc or laptop anymore.
It seems as though I need to plan things out. Plan the martial arts and training, plan out which type of artwork I want to do and crank it out. Easier said than done. I usually just go with the flow of things and see what comes out, though the last week has been so weird.... feelings and emotions all over the place and not knowing what I should do next... it's a bit un nerving really lol! So at this point, this is where I'm at: Not knowing which direction to take, or what to do with myself....
Anyway, it feels better to have written all this crap down lol... really looking forward to Karate tomorrow, Pilates on Tuesday and BJJ on the coming Friday for the first time.....
I'm focused on working my body hard, working my mind and spirit but totally need to find the balance!
Any suggestions will be much appreciated lol =)
Plus, a random question.....: Have you ever watched a trail of ants and disrupted their line to see what they do? Haha
Many blessings <3 xxx And much love <3 xxx
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